Thursday, February 26, 2015

The Sounds of God

People get woken up by all kinds of noises. Alarm clocks. Children. Dogs. Randy and I typically wake up to the braying of the neighbor's donkey. But this morning we woke to the gobbling of wild turkeys in our backyard. 

I've woken up to all kinds of sounds. Roosters in Cuba, Buffalo in Wyoming, snoring pilgrims in Spain. But never a turkey. 

It made me smile, and thank God for the adventurous life he has given me. And for all of his creation.

I definitely think serving God includes taking time to be amazed by the world around us. A world he created for us to live, and delight in.


This week I got my first glimpse of a California Poppy, our state flower. Right there on the hillside along the path that Jovi and I walk daily. What a glorious sight!

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

An Impromptu Conversation

John, the groundskeeper at the park across the street from our house, came back from a week's vacation yesterday. So Jovi and I stopped to see him during our afternoon walk (Jovi for the treats, me for the conversation).

He told me that he and his wife had been updating their new home since October. That every weekend and every vacation he gets he is working on the house. And he misses riding his motorcycle. But a group of 20 or so guys went out on Saturday for the day. And their first stop is always to see Father Mike up in Auburn. "Every little bit helps," he said.

John isn't a super chatty guy, but he has important things to say. He reminds me of the men in my family. They are just pearls of wisdom waiting to happen. But sometimes you have to be patient and interested enough to hear them. Take my Uncle Charlie, for example. He's pretty quiet. But if you stand next to him long enough, you are bound to get a hilarious story out of him. Though it may only come out just above a whisper.

Anyway, back to John. We silently watched a few of the high school track kids run by in their shorts and t-shirts before he continued telling me about his stop for a blessing at the Catholic Church. "I don't really do the whole thing. But I have my beliefs. And like I said. Every little bit helps."

"We went to a Catholic service on Christmas Day," I said. "It was more contemporary than I remember."

"I'm the guy who goes once a year on Christmas," he said. "And you are right. It is different than the boring stuff I sat through as a kid."

"Last week we went to Bayside Church and the visiting pastor said he always thought the Bible was a boring book, but then he realized it was just that boring people had always been the ones to teach it to him," I said.


"That's the truth," John said. "One of the problems I have is that, when you go to a church and just hear one person every week, all you are getting is their version."

"Their interpretation," I agreed. We both nodded.

"And how do you know that guy has it right," John said.

"Preachers are just as human as the rest of us," I said. "They make mistakes too. I think it's important to keep an open mind when we go to church. To think, this person may have it right, and they may not, but I have to take God's Word for it."

"Take a look at all the money the churches have just in this area," he said. "There is one, up on the hill, that when it was being built they built the parking lot first. And we all thought it was going to be a drive-in movie. It was that big. But then it was this church. I don't get that."

I shrugged as another wave of track runners came by. This one long enough to put the conversation to rest. We said our goodbyes and Jovi and I finished our walk home.

There is so much that goes in to serving God. There is having impromptu conversations like this one with the people in our path. There is letting others challenge our thoughts and practices, and allowing God to challenge their thoughts and practices through us. There is considering how our words and choices are going to impact others. Weighing the benefits of a huge church facility and all the services that could then be provided, against how that looks to the community and what else that money could be spent on. And the right choice for one may not be the right choice for another. Because at the end of the day we still have to make the choice God is leading us to, regardless of the ripples.

Friday, February 20, 2015

Not Our Guy

Last Sunday, Ray, our senior pastor at Bayside Church, told us that the leadership team had been in a pastoral search for several years. Not to replace any of our pastors, but because the church had grown so much that an additional pastor was called for.

They really liked Andrew McCourt, of Northern Ireland, who happened to be our visiting minister on Sunday. We laughed and learned from his Valentine's Day message: "Love Wisdom: Lessons from an Irishman."


But after careful consideration, Andrew had declined their offer. So they continued their search. And fell in love with a guy from the Midwest. The entire leadership team agreed that he was their guy, and the guy agreed.

On the day that they were scheduled to have a conference call to hash out the details of his transition into our church, however, our senior pastor woke up with the sensation that this was the wrong guy. That Andrew was our guy.

And then the phone ring. It was the guy from the Midwest. Ray wasn't sure what to do or say. He wanted to follow God, who he felt had been the one telling him that this wasn't the guy, but he just didn't know where to begin.

The other guy beat him to it. "I'm sorry," he said. "I'm not sure why, but I can't come. I don't think I'm your guy."

So Ray called the rest of the leadership team in for a meeting. They were bummed that the guy from the Midwest couldn't come. He had seemed like the perfect fit. But even though they really liked the guy, they, too, had been feeling like maybe God had something different planned for Bayside.

Our pastor called Andrew and told him that he still felt like God was calling Andrew to Bayside. Andrew admitted that he hadn't been able to shake Bayside from his thoughts. And not long after that conversation, all parties agreed that Andrew would be our new pastor!

All of this happened on the tail of Randy and my Valentine's Day adventure. And the timing helped me see the similarities in our experiences.


While Randy and I didn't intentionally choose the wrong course, we still ended up on the wrong path. And while our leadership team did not intentionally plan to bring on the wrong pastor, that is the path they found themselves on.

When Randy and I realized we were on the wrong route, we immediately pulled out our maps and followed the signs to get us back on track. And as soon as our leadership team discovered they had the wrong guy, they immediately heeded God's voice and the direction he was leading them in.

We won't always make the right choices. (Though we shouldn't intentionally make the wrong ones!) But serving God isn't about being perfect. It's about keeping our hearts and minds open so that when we do get off course, God can help us get back on track.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Lent

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent.

Lent is not a tradition I grew up with, but it has become an important practice in my life over the last couple of years... serving God and my relationship with Him by taking the 40 days leading up to Easter to walk across Spain (last year) and read through the entire Bible (the year before).

People observe Lent in all kinds of different ways. For example, this year Margaret Feinberg is leading people through a study of the Gospels. And the Pope is encouraging people to fast from indifference.


Now we all know that social media is an outlet for many people to complain, air their dirty laundry, and criticize one another. But it still surprises me when I see Christians beating up on other Christians.

So you can imagine my surprise when I saw in my newsfeed yesterday self-proclaimed Jesus followers arguing over whether or not observing Lent honored God, had anything to do with God (are we giving up chocolate and pop to honor God, or to lose weight?), or was our human way of trying to earn our way into Heaven.

I'm all for a healthy discussion. And we should ask ourselves what our intentions are behind our practice. But yesterday's "discussion" quickly turned into a boxing match of beliefs.


Because I didn't grow up with this tradition it is easy for me to say that Lent is a choice. I don't believe for a second that God is mad at me for not observing Lent for the first 30 years of my life. Nor do I think He loves me more this year because of my Lenten practice than He did any of the years I observed the 40-days of Mardi Gras instead of Lent. Why? Because no matter what, Jesus still died on the cross.


However, I have seen my relationship with God grow in different ways during the years I have fasted from something. It has strengthened my faith. Because, like any relationship, our relationship with God is as intimate or as distant as we want it to be. So I know I am serving God through this practice. But I also have to remember that I don't have to wait until Ash Wednesday every year to spend time with God. Nor should that focused attention end on Easter Sunday.

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

A Valentine's Day Adventure

Since Valentine's Day is about love, Randy and I decided to spend the day doing what we love -- hiking, enjoying nature, and being together.

A couple months ago some friends of ours gave us a book on "60 Hikes within 60 Miles of Sacramento". We looked for one that promised little foot traffic and allowed dogs, wasn't too long or too strenuous but also not too easy or too short, and off we went.


It was a beautiful wooded trail with lots of ups and downs. But our packs weren't too heavy and we were well shaded from the 70 degree weather. We even found a bench with a view to enjoy our lunch of fruit, cheese, and chocolate.


We weren't too nervous about the fact that the bench was there to honor a woman who had been killed by a mountain lion. But we did keep our eyes and ears open and Jovi close.


After lunch we came across a young couple relaxing in a hammock by the water. The trail then got steep and rocky. I slipped several times as we made our descent. My knees began to ache and Jovi began to limp. But we were nearly 5 miles into our 5 mile hike, so we knew that once we reached the bottom we would be home free.

Except that once we reached bottom a sign indicated that our trailhead was still 3 miles away. How could that be?

We found a shady spot and pulled out our map. We tried to encourage Jovi, who was still limping, to rest. And we ate more chocolate.


Even with our map, however, we couldn't tell where we were or where we'd gone wrong. Because our map only showed the trail we were supposed to be on. Not all the other trails that intersected with it.

There are many times in our lives that we get off track. Sometimes we intentionally choose the way we know isn't right or isn't best. But other times we think we are on the right path, we make what we feel are all the right choices and all the right turns, and it still ends up wrong.

But even though we didn't know where we were, we did have a sign pointing us in the right direction. So we had the choice of backtracking, going up the steep ravine we just came down, or following the sign and trusting it to return us to the right path.

We chose to follow the sign. And it dawned on me to be grateful that we had come across it. Because without the sign we didn't even know we were lost. And here it was giving us a "shortcut" to our car so that we wouldn't have to retrace our steps.

Future signs were a bit more confusing, and ended up taking us 5+ miles to get back to our car instead of 3, but we saw so many beautiful things along the way.


There will be many times in my life that I get lost or off track. No matter how much I commit to serving God I won't get it right all of the time. But I am assured by the fact that God is always watching out for me, pointing me in the way I should go, and showing me beautiful things along the way.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Sheep Without a Shepherd

Listening to Pastor Joseph Prince this morning, I was impressed by something he said.

He said we should look at people like Jesus looked at people. That where we might see rebellion and laziness, Jesus simply saw sheep without a shepherd.

And it was by seeing people through these eyes that Jesus was able to have compassion on them.


Philippians 3:10 talks about the "fellowship of his sufferings". Which means we are joined together with God when we have compassion where He has compassion, when what breaks God's heart also breaks ours.

I think serving God means seeing people as Jesus does. With hearts of compassion. Not as people making mistakes or wasting their potential, not as blights to society or individuals unwilling to help themselves, not as lazy or rebellious. But as the lost sheep of the world.

How would life be different if we chose to see one another through Jesus' eyes?


Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Enough

Serving God is no easy business.

Serving God is about becoming more like Him. Being transformed into His image and likeness. In word and deed.

Serving God is about God preparing us to be image bearers in the world. So that when we go out to serve others we don't completely screw it up by being nothing like Him.

Because I do believe that God has called me to serve Him this year because He is preparing me to serve in the world.

Which means dealing with and letting go of all the things in me that aren't of Him.

One of the things that I have discovered about myself recently--the current thing God and I are working on letting go of--is that I have a "scarcity" mentality. Which means in my mind there is never enough. Enough time, enough money, enough love. Which is all rooted in feeling like I'm not enough.


When I was a kid my brothers spent their money on hobbies and impulses and things they loved. Meanwhile my dollars accumulated in a purse shaped like an ice cream cone. Getting rid of even a dollar might leave me "short".

When I'm given a book to write or edit I get completely overwhelmed. How could 6 weeks possibly be enough time?

When I read Gary Chapman's The Five Love Languages and discovered that my love language is quality time I finally understood my longing for attention from my loved ones. But Chapman didn't warn me that healthy boundaries and limits would be important. That needing time doesn't justify wanting ALL my partner's time. (Randy and I have had to navigate this, after going from spending 24/7 together in Spain to living across the country from one another to now sharing a home.)

But I don't serve a God of not enough. I serve a God of abundance. Prosperity. Exceeding and abundant, above and beyond. I serve a God who expects me to be generous and who wants me to trust Him for enough. Enough energy, enough love, enough time, and enough money to do all the things He has called me to do.

Since this discovery I have begun to pray daily that God would give me the faith and strength to trust Him for enough. Enough energy and focus to get my work done. Enough money to not only meet our needs but also to be able to be a cheerful giver. Enough time and love to appreciate the people He has placed in my world.

And even though we are still in process, I'm already feeling more relaxed and at peace, trusting that He wouldn't give me an assignment without giving me all the tools I need to accomplish it. And He wouldn't have given me life if, in His eyes, I wasn't enough.

Monday, February 9, 2015

The One Day, in All Eternity, For Me

It makes me sad to hear people say about their birthdays, "It's just another day."

I get it. We are all busy. And long are the days when our friends came with presents for a sleepover, while our parents ordered pizza and surprised us with a cake showcasing Barbies or boy bands, our favorite color or the number of our years.


But no matter how many years pass, it doesn't change the fact that this was the day -- the one day in all of eternity -- that God chose for you to come into the world.

I'm so grateful for the friends and family who take time to let me know that my birth was not just another day. Be it cards or phone calls, Facebook messages or texts, jewelry or surprise trips to Tahoe, I think it serves and honors God when we celebrate the day He chose just for us.


Perhaps this year I'll send more cards, make more phone calls, buy more gifts, and pay more attention to Facebook's daily reminder to wish my friends a Happy Birthday!

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Serving, as only I can

"God made you for the purpose of serving Him in a way that no one else can."

Thank you to Kim Schull and the Friends United Meeting staff for seriously the perfect, most fitting birthday card ever! 



God designed each one of us to serve Him, in a unique and special way, a way that no one else can or ever will.

He has a plan just for me. Something only I can do. A way only I can serve. And the more in tune I get with Him the more able I am to tap into the fullness of that plan. Because it's a plan I don't want to go to waste.

How can you not be excited about that?!


Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Practicing Gratitude

Lately I've been practicing gratitude to overcome my frustrations.

At some point along the way I formed a tendency toward complaining (in my head, if not out loud). Which is not at all the person I want to be. But just like I didn't become a complainer over night, I'm not going to become a super grateful person overnight either. It takes practice.

So each time I catch myself complaining (which is sometimes the first complaint, but other times not until after a long litany of self-importance), I replace those thoughts and words with a list of things I am grateful for.


A few days ago Jovi and I were walking in the park when this happened. Between hormones and the flu, competing schedules and doors not opening where we want them to, I felt myself being pulled under by negativism. But one by one I listed things I love and ways God has blessed me recently:
  • I have never been so happy in all my life as I am now, living in California with Rand.
  • We are getting ready to go back to Spain!
  • We passed our background checks so we can now apply for healthcare with Covered California. 
  • John, one of the park employees, keeps dog treats handy for Jovi as we walk by.
  • I love my job and they are keeping me super busy.
  • We haven't had any run-ins with mountain lions.
  • I hope the lady who fell on her wrist at the skating rink is okay.
  • Let Randy have an awesome and productive day today.
  • Bless Angie for her thoughtfulness in sending us cookies in the mail.
  • Thank you God for entrusting me with "serve" as my word of the year because it feels really important.
Isn't it interesting how my gratitude evolved from focusing on myself, to focusing on others, to recognizing the work that God is doing? Like it took me a little while to warm up to what was really in my heart, to get past the "me" in order to get to Him.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

If you are here every week, you aren't doing it right

I've been thinking today about the parable of the Good Samaritan in Luke 10.

Most of us know the story. A man is attacked, beaten, and left half dead on the side of the road. Along comes a priest who sees the man and keeps walking. Next comes a Levite (the tribe of Levi were set apart by God for priestly duties) who also sees the man and keeps walking. It isn't until a Samaritan comes by that anyone stops to help the beaten man. A Samaritan of all people! (The Jews, whom Jesus was preaching to, despised the Samaritans.)

Jesus tells this parable after "an expert in the law" wants to know how to inherit eternal life. He tells Jesus that the law says to serve God first, and to love your neighbor. But he wants to know who his neighbor is.

I started thinking about this parable during our Super-Bowl-at-Church experience Sunday. (Yes, I sometimes daydream about Luke while the pastor is preaching on Daniel!)

As the media team turned off the Super Bowl and turned on the worship band, and as we all reflected on worshiping God not football, I reminded myself not to fall into legalism. Not to be the "expert in the law" who sees everything as black-and-white.


Because sometimes serving God will mean being there for church at 7 p.m. on the dot, with my phone left in the car and my hands raised high. And sometimes it will mean saying no to everything else in order to have my 5 minutes of prayer or Bible reading.

BUT.

I once heard someone preaching on this parable say that the priest and the Levite who didn't stop for the injured man were on their way to church. They couldn't stop and help someone in need because they didn't want to be late for church!

I don't want to be that girl. The one who refuses to see her neighbor in need because she HAS to read her Bible RIGHT NOW or HAS to be at church RIGHT NOW or HAS to pray RIGHT NOW.

That isn't serving God. That is serving the law.

Imagine if a homeless man on the street had stopped me outside the church and asked if I knew the score of the game. Would it be more God-honoring for me to say, "I can't talk right now. I can't be late for church." Or would God prefer I see the man, really see him, pull out my phone and watch with him the last two minutes of the game, and miss the opening worship song in order to celebrate (or mourn) with my "neighbor"?

At another church we regularly attend, the pastor is famous for saying, "If you are here every week, you aren't doing it right." He has tapped in to our tendency toward legalism and knows our need to be reminded that the church isn't "in here", it is "out there".

Monday, February 2, 2015

Super Bowl in the Sanctuary

When we arrived at church last night, rather than entering the sanctuary to the sound of Christian music we were surprised to see the "big game" on both screens.


It was the last two minutes of the Super Bowl. The New England Patriots were up by four, but Seattle had the ball with plenty of time to score.

"That's pretty cool," we said. A church so up with the times they would recognize that folks attending the 7 p.m. service were all probably watching the game on their phones anyway.

Seattle drove the ball toward the end zone. It looked hopeless for New England. But then, on the 2, with time still on the clock, Seattle threw an interception.

It was precisely 7 p.m.

And at precisely 7 p.m. our worship pastor Lincoln Brewster took center stage. "Who wants to watch the last few minutes of the game?" he asked and was rewarded with lots of applause. And then he asked, "Who wants to worship God?"

You could feel the energy in the room shift as hundreds of us recognized what he was asking.

"We're here to worship God!" he shouted and the screens immediately went from football players fighting in the end zone to the words of our worship song.

I knew immediately that Lincoln was telling us there is nothing more important than serving God.

Not even Seattle down by 4 with the ball on the 2. Not even finding out whether or not the guy playing "hot potato" with the ball had actually caught it or not. Not even waiting to see what the refs were going to do about the end zone brawl.

We weren't here to see who got the trophy. We were here to worship God. And if turning off the TVs made one angry or had us immediately pulling out our phones instead of raising our hands in praise, then maybe it was time to ask, Where are our hearts? What has our attention? Who are we here to serve?